A LIfe Once Lost – Surreal Atrocities

the damage has been done

listen to the cries of turmoil

as the day continues to rain

you can hear the vocal violence

silence the crowd

words fall short of sound

as the loudest of men

becom speechless

lack of breath

is what swept me away

as i wallow

helpless in this surreal atrocity

with night approaching

we all become vulnerable

everything seems to move slower

as time drifts apathetically

to great the dawn

as the new day begins

the effort to live becomes none

>> Cavil

i tested your patience

without you even knowiing

so i continued to throw words

around carelessly

i knew how to get you off

certain words

evoked this beast from you

it was your carless eyes

that strayed away

which brought forth

your true feelings

now tell me of the nights

when you pushed my patience

the thrusts of hormonal guilt

i suffer here

your skin

holds the image of his face

and your hair

smells of compulsive lust

now tell me

was it worth it?

>> The Change Came Suddenly

can i spread frustration

without speaking?

without parting my lips

except to breath?

i let my actions speak for me

because my words

collided with yours

it created tension and frustration

so i left

i didnt turn around to see

how troubled you were that night

i promise that it paled in comparison

to the anguish each step brought me

as i walked away

my heart pumps your rhapsody

i still lick my lips

to the thought of you

so now im stuck here

in the purgatory of longing

for that one kiss good-bye

i try to empty myself

of all desire that i crave for ou

but the attempt only brings me

to my knees

i succumb to you idol

this subconscious social vampire

who haunts everythought

i chock on the will to demand patence

only to find myself swallowing blood

>> Nevermore Will They Have An Understanding…

do you know the glorious?

do you know they breathe and live?

the strict attention that they give

toward their competition

is comparable to any domiant country

that exists today

not allowing their alertness

to be distracted while they take

what they want

your actions are useless

the appalled know

not to question or act our

toward the glorious in a harmful manner

the result woudl disastrous

eighter side you choose

can be negative or positive

so i appalled walk away

with their eyes closed

and mouths gaping open

trying to take in each breath

they can as they walk away

they never question them

they never even think twice about it

and all we here is his born

you can hear him strain

as the pitch retreats

deeper into a gloom monotone note

there is a sudden silence

which consumes the crowd

a second later

faces start to grow old with age

stress soaks eyes

with a foggy coat of depression

lips wrinkled

as the air grows bitterly cold

i am running

trying not to look back

leaping over fallen bodies

and seeking shelter from this living hell

>> …In Anything Done Under The Sun

with a simple blink of an eye

the trupeter stops

he has run out of breath

he dtops to his knees

to regain his breath

panting and gasping for as much air

as he can fit into his tired lungs

he risses to his feet

with tears in his eyes

he has failed

>> Maudlin

her cloths were soaked with mildew

ropes burned their way

through her fragile thin wrists

i stood over her

watching to see

if she was going to live or die

i remember her

screaming and scratching to my arms

while i was tying her wrists

behind her back

she was kicking her legs

up and down in my direction

trying to prevent me from knotting the ropes

stop crying

i screamed in her face

you took me for granted this time

how could youve done this to me

i said as i punched the ground beside her

until fists were sore and bloody

honey this couldve all been different

if you had wanted it to be

i gently whispered in her ear

u dont care what you want anymore

this is what i want now

dont offer me anything

you will be wasting you breath

>> Pious

a clustered mind is not a benefical one

i am being chocked mentally

thought flow through my head

like a verbose raging river

tambling four word phrases

jumping from noun to noun

i yearn to live for a a person

that can make me feel like pious

but instead i am shattered by irreverence

i want someone who allows themselves

to live without margins

to be bereaved

nights turn into days

and i can only remember my dreams

they seem existent

creating the smell of perfume

the fumes turn into a plague

overbearing my senses

with some imaginary woman

who fucks me from hello

when i open my eyes

i see a reflection of myself

lost and motionless

>> The Wicked Will Rot

when did this all start anyway?

we have all the time in the world to kil

so lets converse over my imperfections

you did it all the time

even when i was standing next to you

whey should now be any different?

you already shattered

my self image

with your self righteous

fist of disapprval

i guess when i wasnt there

i wasnt there period

was i

no

trust is not an option with me anymore

my secrets are my secrets

ive beenpushed into this state

of discomfort once before

i cannot act like it doesnt bother me

my eyes strain

clearly enough for you

to understand something

you lack of compassion

will never allow you to see

>> Overwhelming

now we are here

we are closer to absolute control

more than ever before

my growing desire

to conquer the world

increases over night

this surge of poetic tyranny

gushes through my body conduits

feelings meet me face to face

i stand up taller than you

and watch my hands smother this world

i want to leave millions hypnotized

and gasping for their last breath

i have been here once before by myself

this is nothing new for me

i am degraded and thrown aside

realization steps away from its waltz

with my mental shadows

to present this uncoated truth

>> In Anything Done Under The Sun

with a simple blink of an eye

the trupeter stops

he has run out of breath

he dtops to his knees

to regain his breath

panting and gasping for as much air

as he can fit into his tired lungs

he risses to his feet

with tears in his eyes

he has failed